This song Re:Voiced is terrific

Well I wont give up on us
God knows I'm tough enough
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it

I wont give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
Im giving you all my love
Im still looking up

Writing is amazing

Take a book for example. I can pick up a book and flip to a random page. Reading the third paragraph down the page, a picture is painted in my mind. I don't know much about the paragraph because I've never read the book. So I started from the beginning. I read a few chapters and then laid down on my couch with my eyes closed. The picture do the first chapters painted in my mind. It's like a movie. But you go at your own pace.  Get confused and you can turn a page back. The words form together in a picture. A movie in your head. A go at your own pace movie always waiting for you to turn the page. It's amazing, or so I think. 

The American school system is stupid

I dont care
about
cosθ
or why
carbon has
4 bonds.
Teach me
how to
not
hate myself
anymore

When I was 13
there was a boy
who used to call me
fat
and
ugly
and
I always used to make
excuses up
for him
like
he got bullied himself
not by peers
but by
the voices in his mind
or
his parents were getting a
divorce
because
his dad ran off with
the blonde bimbo
from
the beauty salon
down the road
but
then
I took a step back
and
I realized
maybe he just hated me
so
I started to
hate
myself.

(k o f)

The desire to self harm

I have the urge, a craving, to take a blade and watch the blood trickle down my arm.  The urge to take all my problems away. A craving to feel normal

The Cave

It's empty in the valley of you heart 

The sun it rises slowly as you walk

Away from all the fears

And all the faults you've left behind

The harvest left no food for you to eat

You cannibal you meat eater you see

But I have seen the same

I know the shame in your defeat

But I will hold on hope

And I will let you choke

On the noose around your neck 

And I'll find strength in pain

And I'll change my ways

I'll know my name as it's called again

Cuz I have other things to fill my time

You take what is yours and I'll take mine

Now let me at the truth 

Which will refresh my broken mind

So tie me to a post and block my ears

I can see windows and orphans through my tears

I know my call despite my faults

And despite my growing fears

But I will hold on hope

And I will let you choke

On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain

And I will change my ways

I'll know my name as it's called again

So come out of your cave walking  on your hands

And see the world hanging upside down

You can understand dependence

When you know the makers land

So make your sirens call

And sing all you want

I will not hear what you have to say

Cuz I need freedom now 

And I need to know how

To live my life as it's meant to be

But I will hold on hope

And I will let you choke

On the noose around your neck

And I'll find strength in pain

And I will change my ways

I'll know my name as it's called again. 

Play with her hair, tell her you love her, be weird together, run in the streets, slow dance together, hold her hand, kiss in the rain.

Make memories.