Dear friend,

He looks really happy without me and I'm not. Sure I understand how that could be. I try to be happy...but ever since he left ive been a mess. I don't know why I just can't "get over it". He was a big part of my life. I can't just stop. How do you go years clicking with somebody and then expect all to fall apart in a few days...or even a few. Months.  I'm not sure where I'm going and I'm not sure where I'll end up but for now...this sucks.